Being honest with yourself

2/5/2008

I had the worst day ever today. A shorthand lesson. Now it’s not that I’m not good at shorthand or any slower than other people. When we started i understood it a lot quicker than others. The problem is that i missed a whole bunch of lessons and now our tests have started. If we don’t pass today we get a test the next week and the week after. If we don’t pass them we can’t go on to next year. Sucks. So basically i fail. Instead of making a joke out of it like i usually do to hide people from my disappointment i just start crying. All this honesty is getting to much. I can see our teacher coming towards me and asks me if I’m OK. To my Surprise she was really nice about it and helped me quite a bit. If i hadn’t of cried i don’t think she would have paid as much attention to me and given me some help. Still feel down.

I’ve just got back from my friends house and after listening to me go on and on about all my problems i feel a little better. This is unlike me as well. I’m a listener i don’t tend to bang on about my issues. I’d rather help somebody else with their problems. It felt good to get everything i was worried about out in the open. Note to self. Must do this more often.